Thanks, littleGTO - I appreciate the support. Goodness knows I need it now.
And yeah, I do know the affair itself is not the root of the problem. It's awful and devastating, but it is just a symptom of other things. He never had any complaints that he shared with me. In fact, not even a month before the affair began, he was always telling me that he adored me and that I was a goddess. But I do know that things weren't perfect, and that I wasn't perfect. We didn't make enough time for each other. I can't even remember that last time we had a date night. And that wasn't all down to his crazy work schedule, although that certainly didn't help matters. There were times that I didn't want to do things because of my own insecurities and depression. Those are things that I have been working on. I've regained my confidence and strength, which helps a lot.
I truly believe that H is having a MLC, and that scares me - a lot. I know that it is going to be a very long, very bumpy ride. I'm just doing my best to prepare myself, and my son.
