I don't suggest this sort of pasttime as one you should pick up. It's pretty negative and doesn't foster good PMA.
Just reading the other posts here today hasn't helped. I have come to the conclusion that there are lots of folks on the BB today who are feeling agitated, neglected, forlorn and despairing. I wish I could tell you I feel differently.
I don't.
I left a VM for Mr. W. a few hours ago regarding his birthday. I put on my smiley face and suggested that since he's bowling on his actual birthday, maybe we could all go out on Monday night--my treat?
He just called back to talk about the golf tournament. When we finished that discussion I asked about dinner since I will be out of town this weekend? He seemed sort of irritated.
Note: I will not ASSume he was irritated with me.
He then sighed and said, "Yeah, I got your message. I hope you don't want to go out on Wednesday night because Gary is taking me out for my birthday."
I know I mentioned Monday in my message, but I refuse to be "right".
I said, "If I forgot to mention Monday, I'm sorry if it seemed evasive. Do you think Monday would work out for you?"
He said, "Monday works. Thanks."
We then discussed dinner for tonight, and I was at least glad I could tell him that dinner is in the crock pot and that all that needs to be done is to boil the chinese noodles and make the hot & sour soup. He seemed to perk up at that (whether it was the dinner menu or the fact that he had nothing much left to do, I don't know).
JJ or Laurie, if you read this, I'm really at a loss on how to work through this.
I read so many people who have to contend with OW/OM, but my H seems to be firmly entrenched with his drinking buddy. I really think Gary should get a girlfriend... he's always trying, and it's pretty sad.
I really don't know how to break through right now? I am pretty sure that I'm my own worst enemy right now. And I'm nearly PMSing, so that isn't helping.
What sort of goals to I need to make to sit this one out and be happy? Because the sad truth is that I'm feeling really down about where I am right now.
HELP
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."