Moving it here, we've been peicing for 4 months

[Tallula]

Yes, it is tough!!

What was funny is that he thought telling me that he was with that many woman who all wanted a R with him, but that he chose me because and I quote "If I put all their good qualities together, they barely make up you. I was confused that since we got together so young, I settled, you settled, etc. I realized even more how amazing you are. I want to be with you, not for the kids or because I married you, but because of you." would make me feel better. Um, no. Kind of, but I'm having some serious panic attacks about running into the stupid acquintaince. I'm guessing he may have warned her, I'm just done talking about it so I'm not going to ask. But, it actually did make my occasional obsession with the main OW almost completely go away.

Last night my good friend, who is my neighbor, told me she cheated on her H...with a married man as well. What in the world!?!?! Talked to H about it. It's just like, sweet GOD are there any people who do take their vows seriously anymore.

Ok, so some really big news. My H took a job in another state. He leaves on friday and we will follow in a few months. This makes me excited, scared, sad, scared...excited. From all we have gone through, I've gotten a new outlook on life. From a large paycut H got, to the S, to the fact that 3 kids under 4 in daycare eats up almost my whole paycheck, we have become one car breakdown away from not paying the bills. We are taking this leap, because...why NOT!! I haven't told my family or many friends. I know people will think we are crazy doing this after what we have been through, but we look at it as an opportunity to pay off debt, save up money and go on an adventure.

I am scared. It's going to be really, really hard being a total single parent. It's going to be really, really hard for H to be away from us, especially the baby. Of course I's worried he'll cheat and then I'm stuck in a different state. But, then I just come back.

Life is too short to not take chances. I've learned that coasting isn't the way to live! Not in marriage, a job, anything. I'm going to really miss him, which is amazing because there was a time 6-8 months ago I couldn't stand to be in the same room as him, and vice versa.

Thanks cbtdad, I'll check out lovethehubs posts!!