hope the eye surgery goes well and trip w/ h to dr, etc. as well.
it's the frustration man- one more little "frontier" to conquer huh???? (well, one more GIANT frontier)
i laughe dwhen you were referring to your friends & coworkers at work - that you'd worked with for fifty gazillion yers. about one kind word and it all spilled out- oh man, is that ever me.
I always knew/know every single time - that someone is told (not that many people really) that there's every prospect it will come back to bite me on the booty- HOWEVER, KNOWING myself as i do- the friendship & support, etc. outweigh the downside. people knowing- i've made it clear i'm giving it a whirl- for better or worse- & they can just adjust as they need to. my couple close girlfriends, of course, don't really want to see his face or like him very much- i get it. i do - they will bump into him here now or then- they just have to deal with it. they manage- i'm not offended. i never said they have to remain "buddies" , etc.
we're all grown ups- they don't "go there" with the "you have to do this, you have to do that" junk. my one friend in Fla- i like her alot- she's quite bossy tho- forgets i'm not herkid i guess, she's so used to being "in charge totally " of her kid and her h. she gets on my nevers sometimes- i try and bite it back. i don't think she realizes how she comes across sometimes-mostly i do okay. every so often i have to say (kind of kiddingly- kind of not) HEY- YA THINK YOU'RE MY MOTEHR?? OR WHAT) she feels free to dive in and be telling me what to do about social security? investments? life? love? etc. she's not particularly happy or incredibly wise (i think) so wtf???? oh well- friends- ya get the good with the bad, like everyone else - huh???
it always surprises me because she's a pretty darn modest & submissive kind of woman in general- yet with me- wa hoo- dives rite in with the "you have to....." and so on.
i think this doormat thing i've got goin on is a bit more pervasive than i've ever realized. i THOUGHT i just am being nice by not always corr3ecting people or whamming them with NOT ON YOUR LIFE-type reactions. maybe i've just got to be more forceful- a bit - so they just back up a bit more- maybe you too??? we can still be nice and be friends, can't we - and be a bit (just alittle bit) more ruthless & honest??
i'm getting a bit tired of the "input" tht's a bit more than i solicit. well, i never usually actually ASK anyuone what they think- it's rare. guess just throwing it out there- invites comment. guilty...
hope your day is okay. working- kindergarten & 2nd grade - always an adventure.
today- no constant questions unless they're on fire, going to vomit or are bleeding. ta da
