Goodness. Then you will have to give up position but do it gracefully if it comes to it. This is where you are grace personified. I smell a turning point that will be to your advantage, but you can't give in to emotion or expectation.

Tread carefully, you have to live your life, basically, like H is no longer in it. Think of him as the hired help. You'd be upset, but you wouldn't get all crazy on someone who said "I'm sorry, this isn't working out and I'll stay until you can figure something..."

Just my take though, one of many smile