I have been re-reading DR since the day I got it. I have set up some goals, and some positive things to look for. I've been hanging out with friends and family as much as they can stand me.
Accuray- You hit it spot on with what I have been thinking in my mind. When I went through his phone and confronted him about it he really seemed to be shaken up and nervous. He told me time and time again that nothing ever happened between them. I even said it at the time that I considered it an EA. Over the years we've been together, I always said to him that if he ever cheated on me then I'd be gone. (WHY would I even bring that up I don't know?) Now that I'm actually in the situation that this may have been what happened, I already asked myself if I really would leave him because of it and I can honestly say I wouldn't. I would be willing to work through an affair. We've been married over 10 years and I would not throw that away over one mistake. I had thought to myself that maybe he was putting some blame on me for things to shift the guilt from himself.
I have another IC session tomorrow, I'm going to tell her of my plans to just back off and let him breathe. His mom told me he's headed up to visit family and friends in Canada this weekend for the holiday. I didn't ask him anything about it nor will I.
Its so weird having been with him every day for the whole span of our marriage, save for some short trips here and there, and now its been over 2 months since I've seen his face or heard his voice.
Me: 31 H: 32 Married 10 years, together 11 No kids H moved out to an apt 8-3-13
Experience: That most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God, do you learn. ~C.S. Lewis
