I'm back for a while

[ClingingToHope]

Ken, Underdog, I've actually thought about that a lot.

I love all kids. I'm a big kid at heart and I'm pretty sure when this kid comes I will be nice enough to him/her.

Now, rushing to meet him/her when it arrives -- I'm sure D11 will want me to met her now brother/sister, well that will be weird, especially since I've spent zero time in the immediate vicinity of Harley guy.

I actually feel sorry for the soon to be baby. XW was never that energetic of a mother with her first two daughters. I was the one who rolled around on the floor and made silly faces and all that.

That's just continued over the years and now each of them have a lot more of my personality than they do hers. In a way, they'll probably get that kind of treatment from D14 and D11. So I guess a little of me will be passed on.

I guess I dread the inevitable conversation where D14 or D11 wants to change plans with me to spend time with their brother or sister.

In the immediate future, there's going to be an IEP meeting for D11 and it's usually six women, one male teacher and myself. I'm hoping XW isn't showing so I don't have to sit there and listen to pregnancy talk.

I was going to journal, but there's not really much going on right now. Today, some texts with XW on scheduling stuff with D14 and D11 tomorrow. See them a little tomorrow. Have them Thursday then D14 on Friday.

Still not excited to be at work. Then again, this morning was a plasma morning and I was up at 5:30 a.m. so I'm tired.