Thank you all so much for the advice. I have felt so alone the past year. I have been hiding everything from my friends and family because if we are ever able to reconcile, I don't want it to affect their perception of H and make things more difficult.
I do have concerns about OW. I believe (and H has somewhat admitted) that OW has a drinking problem. H has been trying to save her from her downward spiral and has spent the past year picking her up. It is so ironic that H was there for OW, but here I am alone picking myself up and moving forward with my life on my own. Despite the fact that it hurts and I will have a million setbacks on my journey, it makes me smile to know that I am strong and I will do this for myself and my kids.
