i get it - honestly i do. saving one's self from further torment is no small potatos.
i was more cogitating on the arrival at certain places from different angles (if you will).
here's a kicker- in my sitch , where he thinks i'm soooo awful for soooo long (apparently) that when we have a good time together he's surprised & comments-
and me, the opposite. when we get together and he's icky (if even for a minute- before i walk away because i have zero toleranc3 now) - and i remember he's not the nice guy i have fond memories of but some icky old man whose a crab-
oh well huh??? as ye sow, so shall ye reap.
i'm glad you're getting a handle on the angry- i'm tryin - i am. i'm okay alot of the time if i'm not talking about it or thinking aobut it (specifically) -
when i verbalize- i'm ratty. i know, sorry gang. i'm pretty darn done with the feeling bad about self due to others' criticism and dump as well- .
talk about non-productive huh???? i guess i meant more "standing" as in "still standing". we're "standers" - as in don't lay down & die-ers.
