Again, THANK YOU to all of you who held my hand yesterday and helped me through a really awful day!
After I got home, my H started texting again. I ignored him for a bit, but it was becoming obvious that I was ignoring him, and I don't want to come across as being mean so I finally answered....AND he opened up.
I still have NO idea why he was being such an up and down jerk yesterday, but he opened up about some stuff that I never knew.
He said that for awhile now he hasn't really felt "needed or wanted" by me. He said that he wishes I would initiate ML more because it makes him feel like I want him as a "man" (GOOD call Pud!). We texted about things we think we can work on, etc.
We had really honest, good conversation. He came back to the house for a couple of hours before work and hung out with the kids. It a completely stress-free evening.
I am remembering what you all wrote to me. I am keeping my expectations at ZERO for today, but am glad that yesterday ended better.
And, I need to work harder on staying OFF the roller coaster ride.
And, Accuray....thank you for helping me to NOT make rash decisions in the middle of turmoil. I do have a lot to work on yet, within myself, before I can say I gave it my all.
