just was thinking about you- being DONE and all. (if i've said this already- then you're gonna have to chalk it up to my ancient-ness and forgive me repeating myself)
but i think (thought) it was a new thought.
got thinking about you being DONE because your h is there in your face alllll the time and you can't remember what he "was" - hardly any more. and recapture some feelings about him - or his potential .
me- i've got the reverse problem- he's here soooo infrequently- my mind goes back to what he was - the guy in my mind (maybe only in my mind now) the person i think he "is" and very probably is not and hasn't been for years now - - now h is less "real to me" THAN that guy from the olden days. gotta snap outta someting here i guess.
i can't see how either of us begin over with these guys- tne new thems -
i'm still standing because i'm probably based in fantasy and recollection and so, (since i have no new better life gonig on) i'm "stuck at the moment".
you're still standing because he just doesn't go away- and (since you have no new better life gonig on) his presence keeps you "stuck at the moment".
okay- this being said- wtf??? just a thought- don't know exactly what the heck we do with this information- just ruminating around while i'm trying to get rid of pile in attic of stuff that needs to be donated or auctioned off or something. maybe a giant craig list auction of misc odds & ends- i think i will, what the heck? it's not doing a darn thing sitting there.
hope you're good- sos here. hope you have a very good day - i'm still sick & coughing constantly, but more chipper. ta da
