Me 11 months on.

[Fartiltre]

HWA,

But I do kind of want to state my position in this sitch and how I have tried so many different ways. Yes, I agree I shouldn't still say anything, it is just that horrible sense of feeling that if one of the boys ask many years down the track, it is only then that they might understand what I have tried to do. I get the feeling at this time, it is simply "mum left because of dad" and that's it.

You had me worried there for a moment, but then I read the below!

*****But don't worry, no talk to the boys about anything other than the transfer. No discussion why I am not staying, nor discussion about the W

I understand you so well – I have the same thoughts! This is about you (and me) being able to look at ourselves and say. I did all I could! I did wrong while we were married and there was not a place in Ws heart for another chance or forgiveness. I have forgiven myself and her!
If we can do that we will be all right and our children won’t need to know anything.
I know you read Bug’s piecing post – nothing is determined until you call it!

I am getting so much better at all of this now.

You have come such a long way the last 3 months or so and reading the above is great. I won’t even try to guess how you would have handled this a while ago!

Your post in LJC’s thread…..

Though the difference in me is a few months or weeks ago I would have been struggling with this question, now it is just simply a question.

…also shows this!

I think you are doing so well.

Still sad, still sorry, still wish the W would do something....anything, but also realising the reality of our marriage.

That’s exactly how I feel these days. I feel sad and sorry but the hurt from 2 months ago is much less these days.

Cows and sheeps – we will come out all right on the other side! What ever happens!

All the best!

F