Hey Tallula,
Piecing is so tough. I get it. Just try and remember that y'all didn't get into this situation over night and you certainly won't get out of it overnight.
It's going to take time. The thoughts you are having are natural, but remember they are just "thoughts"
You can control them. I realize how painful it must be to hear those things. I for one did not want details either. She has offered some things without me asking and they have just come up in conversations. I just do my best to remind myself that that was the past and we ware working towards the future.
Lovethehub has some great posts. Look up some of her stuff and hopefully she stops by and can give you some advice


M 37 W 30
S 7
Together 10 years
Married 9 years
BD: 12/12/12(W filed same day)
I moved to apartment 1/11/13
W and S moved to MIL 1/11/13
Peicing: 6/3/13
Reconciled: 7/2013
BD2: 4/20/16
still working on it