I had a colleague today ask me if "all this heartache is really worth it?"

And, I know today is a BAD day to try to sort that out....BUT.

But, is it???? Is it worth how sad I am all the time? It is worth knowing he is lying to me about everything and I feel like a doormat?

Is it worth it when I can't seem to pull myself up enough to GAL and have a PMA? I just want to go home after work and get in bed and cry. Where am I supposed to have the strength to GAL?

All of my family and his family and all of our friends and coworkers keep asking me if it's worth it. They keep telling to get out of this M...."you deserve better", etc.

Most days, I am strong in my conviction to stand for my marriage...for my H. But, today, I am so conflicted.

And, most importantly, what about my four precious children? When is it time for me to let go for them?

I'm just venting...and rambling. It's been a whopper of a day.