FY,
If you have not read the reconnection thread that I created back in 2003, you might want to take a moment and read it. There is some very good material on it. Here is the link:

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=190969&page=1


Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.