Im back in my house, all furniture etc arrived on time & spent the weekend washing, Ironing & making some meals up for the week to save me cooking when I get home from work....just love roasted veg's & sausage!!
No contact from me to WAW but she has called a few times, twice on friday with mobile phone problems that she cannot seem to sort & then a big call on Saturday to tell me about major financial problems she is encountering (mortgage etc) OM not mentioned once. Gave her lots of calm advice & offered to help her out with some money to overcome her immediate problems (I really cannot sit back & watch her implode) She accepted the offer, I wont see her, just transfer to her bank account. She rang again today to tell me the action she has taken to sort her debts, my response was to say `well done' for facing up to them rather than ignoring letters & demands.
Questions in my head: 1) I wonder why she can only confide in me over these problems? She admitted this! I always used to be her rock until a couple of years ago, I suppose i am being in a small way again. 2) I wonder if OM is still on the scene? why cant she confide in him or ask him for help? probably pride! So I'm sure i get the depressed calls & he gets the nice ones! lol! 3) Shes back on anti-depressants again (a lifelong fixture for her) why?
In a way I think that proves to me its over (probably reading between the lines again) if shes prepared not to want me back when shes in a big mess financially she never will. I would have thought very hard if that had been suggested as money is not a reason for us to get back together.
To round up it seems that I'm heading towards a big `T'-junction. I was really flattered on night out at the weekend to be chatted up by a lovely girl I knew from a few years ago. (12 years my junior too!, the weight loss must have worked). I think this weeks going to be a mini rollercoaster. I see dilemmas, do I move on or do I wait for the call from the WAW that I think will never come? I dont want to mess this girl about, if I commit that will be it....decisions...decisions!
Me 50 W 46 Stepson 16 Together 6yr, Married 3yr Known each other 20yr ILYBNILWY Jul 13 Found out about affair Jul 13 Left Marital home Jul 13
