Journaling: I kept having nightmares all night last night. This whole situation is not good for me at all. A part of me just wants to run away. If I could, I would. If I had the financial means, if I didn't have children and wasn't about to give birth, H would have been history. I wouldn't put up with half go this for a second.
When we met I made six figures. I had a real life. I moved across the country for him, quit everything, had babies two years in a row and gig screwed. If H had done something like this a few years ago, I'd be absolutely fine by now, and I don't think he would have done anything like that when I had more power to get up and leave.
