Wife said she was done! House sold, Moving forward

[Maritimer]

There are very few apartments where she lives but due to being a smaller community they usually dont allow pets, or are for "mature tenants only" so no kids. Most require signing a year long lease which I hate to be committed to.

My rush for a house is due that I really miss having a yard for my kids & dog to play in. No people upstairs making noise half the night, Rent is higher than a mortgage if you get a place under 150K. Newer mini homes with big yards go for under 70K. I guess it has to do with building equity and having something I can call my own. I loved the community I use to live in & it is where I would like to live long term. My current basement apartment is dark and cold, kinda brings my mood down.

I am planning for a life that myself and my boys can enjoy and be proud of. I have no expectations that she will want to return into a relationship with me. I still prey and hope that she would want to be my wife again but the way she has been towards me don't look promising. I never seen her act this way to anyone else in the 11 years that I have known her. When I leave her place and say goodbye to everyone she looks at me with emotionless dark eyes, not acknowledging me then shuts the door.. so cold.

My friends and family cant believe how calm, positive, and understanding I am going through all of this. Some joked saying I would be the most amicable husband to get a divorce with! It is unfortunate that she does not want to be with the person I have become.

I just need the strength to get through the next 5 month so I can implement these changes. I can and will do this!