I'm so glad I found your thread. Very similar stuff!!

"I came home and H was concerned. I told him the truth. I struggle to be close to him when I get these triggers. I'm not angry. I'm trying to take care of myself."

Oh god, this is me. My H sees my face and will ask and ask until I tell him. It's one part "I take care of me" and another part "I don't want to throw guilt at him"

I am "in love" with my H again, as he is with me. But, sometimes even when ML, I'll have a trigger.

From this day forward, and one day at a time really help me. My wall comes up when I feel him pull away or have a trigger. So hard to keep from erecting that dang wall...


M: 9 yrs
T: 13 yrs
H:34 Me:35, S4, D2, S 7 months
Dday 11/12-PA & multiple PAs
Dbing 12/12
S 1/13
7/13 H moved back in basement.
8/13 #3 born
10/13 still cheating
10/13 He moves across country, I file for D