He already knows what you want, he cant give it to you yet (or maybe even ever), period. The reality of it is, your either going to keep standing, or your not. Let go of that rope a little, you've got too tight a grip still.
Its gonna take more time, ok, can you handle it? Are you really in a place that you think divorce is better than limbo land? or are your still trying to convince yourself of that. I dunno, your the only one that can truly answer that question. My hunch says no thou. Give yourself some more time to detach, its only been a month since he moved out, said a few things, and you let your expectations ramp up a little. Your really only in this 8-9 months, I know that feels like an eternity, but what if it takes another year? I hate to say this, but he isn't sure, are you willing to give him more time? If we're using the general rule of one month per year, you got at least another 6 months of this. ouch. Your mindset is EVERYTHING.
Try and set a few goals for yourself the next week or two. Nothing huge, some small steps that get you going in a positive mindset. I know how you love the crafting/painting stuff. Is there something in the house that you can work on to keep yourself busy? An old chair or table? How about just try something new, some modeling clay/sculpturing? Try a real painting? like a house in the forest type thing. I dunno.
Keep your mind busy, stop trying to think what HE might be thinking, he'll tell you when he's ready. Unless of course, you decide your done, you'll still be my fellow DB'er. Don't make me come up there and take you to a hockey game, lol. If I have to stop this car........
