Thanks, everyone. As the title of this thread says, I wouldn't give nothing for my journey now. And I wouldn't, no matter what the result.

I was drawn to DB because of one of the basic premises, it you change yourself, those around you change.

And that has happened.

But you have to change for you, the change can't be based on the other person. It can't be a strategy. It has to come from deep in the soul.

I told my H something I have said here. He gave me a great gift when he left because it forced me to really look at me and evaluate my life and who I wanted to be. I knew in his walking away I was losing something really important.

I was a very unhappy person and I didn't want to be that, so I changed.


Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss