GTO - I know when I had a bad interaction and lost it, gave in (in my eyes), said too much. I always would think that was it. I blew it!
As many have reminded me, one interaction doesn't change much.

I think you are doing well to question what you say after you calm and maybe more thinking would help with finding out where you really are. Some find it very helpful to write down what they are thinking and even break it into positives and negatives.

I had a weekend like yours a while back, maybe worse as I am really bad with spinning. From remembering that weekend, my suggestion would be to breathe and Gal, get outside and fresh air. It was very hard for me and I got through it, so there is no question you will too.

Keep posting.

M46,W41
D16,D18
M22,T25
BD 11/12
W moved out 01/13
Piecing 10/13
Divorced 01/15
"Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can."
UrWorthy