hey ur-

you know where you were saying about holding on too tightly to the past. it's the problem you know - something to compare it to. if we never had any kind of an r that was great - we wouldn't be looking for it again. that's the problem-KNOWING what i'm missing- what someone else is getting- grrrrrrr grrrrr

i wanna be all generous and wise- really do. i'm just not- i'm sick and tired of being gracious about "doing without" while some jerk is getting it all. ya know- i know it's counterproductive- i just felt like sayin it.

never mind- i'm confused and unfocused - better go wash my stupid hair and decent-up a bit since i didn't get called to work. pay some bills- balance mom's checking acct - & pay her tax bills - lots to do- no enthusiasm or "perk"

oh well huh???