keep thinking & thhking aboutyou. was sick as a dog sunday- fever & deciding i was probably gonna die- then it made me think ofyou home alone with your eye sitch - and i was having some real fellow-feeling for what you're going thru.
i hope it clears up a bit soon- you've got my praye4s, crossed fingers and also any good vibes i can muster to shoot out thru my brain to the ethers.
maybe they'll bounc off some planet and shoot you in the head. idk- it's allll so suckie. i think it's the weather. (can we blame it on that?) i was just thinking of you saying your h is same old stuff & skype- and me thinking of my h being with ow- picturing same old stuff (me) (y0u) endeavoring to just carry on- what a real giant bunch of crappola it all is.
i'm in bottom with the db at moment too- just not finding any purpose.
feel like calling him up and just sayin - so you in or out????
even dialed phone- didn't do it-
i'm soooooof'ing tired o not talking- not having a friend, companion- knowing allllll his companionship- etc. - EVERYTHING is being used on his life down there- stupid old tennis buddies- stupid old cow ow- etc. what the hell is this anyway????? i cna hardly stand it sometimes- just being shoved out the window in favor of these other goovers.
someone somewhere yesterday in these posts was saying about our h's needing other "poor sould" to save- well, fits my h to a T.
he's "saving " ow- he's gonna "take care" of his older buddy whose got health problems- wtf world???????/ why doesnt' he come save me from my stinking mother & family if he wants some kind of project????
i don't get it-
i don't like it-
i am in total sympathy with you- are you going to do the dating thing? i wonder sometimes- i'm THAT bored of being on my own and THAT sick of it all-
but then- i think of my girlfriend's rat of a h and the really nice way he portrays hmself on line in a dating place- and think alot of it is just more dishonest guys.
bad attitude i know- oh well- I SURE HOPE you manage to perk up a bit so you feel better. the singing patient is nice- i'd go for a singing anything. anyone that is not griping about something...
myself included. i think i'm becoming a sour pickle here- nothing fun & pleasing - NEED TO GET RITE OUT OF THIS LIFE I HAVE GOING - ALLLLLLL GIANT DOWNERS _ AND FIND SOME ENTERTAINMENT. saturday was good- just two days of being dreary and sick has made me allllll ratty-
God- and now i have to feel bad about what a pitiful icky downer wreck i can be sometimes-
oh man- no justice. your're great- idk how you've endured what you have so far-
i think it's alllll we CAN do - no??? just plod along and endure and endure til we flip our wigs???
i mean- it's no darn good trying to figure what to do til we know for sure what is rite for us ? - rite??? soooo- STUCK BIG TIME just going on- going forward - having your life, having my life, being unhapy about these guys- til we either don't want them anymore- get to hate them? - think the pain is worse than the lonliness- etc.
i guess...
just can't see the way today-
perhaps tomorrow will be better . i am so sorry your eyes are reacting so badly- you sure have alot of stuff testing your strength these days.
hang on man.
xxoo (re your co-workers- only listen if you feel like it . otherwise- remember EVERYONE always knows what's best for everyone else- look at their lives . they're not the guy in your shoes & hert).
