I'm glad to see that you are taking back the control over your life. You are absolutely correct, he's not in control of anything because he is the one lost and very confused. You are the one that has both feet on the ground and living in reality.
It takes a while to get to where you are now. The door has opened a crack for you and now you'll be able to open it wider w/your new found knowledge.
Keep up the good work.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
