Rosa, Does resting your eyes help at all? Maybe too much time spent reading and computer work isn't helping. I realize you need to read for work, but when you are home, maybe you need to just step away from things that are putting a strain on your eyes for now. I honestly do not like the sound of what your surgeon has told you about your eyes.
As for your h, people aren't walking in your shoes, so they do not know what they are talking about. Yes, they are getting frustrated watching you and knowing about your situation, but until it happens to them, they don't truly know what they would do. They mean well...but they need to step back and allow you to make your own decisions.
I do hope your eyes are better soon. Please, please rest them as much as you can.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
