T, I don't see how an open wound can heal. I think it's gonna hurt until it's over. And then once it is, and this is what has happened with me and the end of my H's ow, the hurt gets a lot worse before it gets better. Kind of like going back and living it all together at once. Just prepare yourself. I feel like if I can have a good handle on what's ahead, I can move through it easier.
Great to hear from you, Sis!
M38,H39 M:16Y BD:8/12 OWDB:11/12 S:11/12-5/13 "Temp" home:6/13 OW dropped:9/13 "I love you":12/13 H ring on:2/14 Depression back:5/15 "I'm done:" 7/15 H moved out: 3/16 H moved back: 12/16 Working on us: 3/17
My T, I know that this is one of the toughest parts.
The interesting thing about this is that while you are going through it, you sometimes dont realize some things.
But I have seen it. I have seen who you are, what you are made of. I have seen your growth. It takes a special person to do what you are doing, what we are all doing or have done.
It takes someone of worth, with strength and courage and fortitude
Someone who loves deeply and true.
Someone who wont give up when the going gets rough and digs in deeper when it does.
Someone who believe in love and family.
Someone who knows that you must always try your very best and then a little more.
And that all matters, T. It matters.
Because if we dont believe in others and ourselves, if we dont believe in family and love, if we dont believe in trying our hardest, if we dont believe in acting with dignity and strength, then who are we really?
You are simply amazing. I am honored to have walked this with you.
And I want you to know, that there is nothing greater than love - for others, ourselves, our family, God. Nothing.
So, I am putting on my cheerleader costume. Rooting you through this last part.
And when it gets a bit harder, and it might, reach in to that big, wonderful heart and remember what matter.
You are right, Raine. An open wound cannot heal, and I think the wound stays open during limbo. It's just the nature of things. I so look forward to a time of healing after all my heart has gone through.
My cheerleader ~
You know how tough things are for me right now. It's a delicate time for me and H. I'm doing my best to be a rock while he is so fragile. It's a struggle.
I've made it this far, and I don't intend on giving up now. I know myself - I know what matters, what's important to me, what I hold most dear.
What I don't know is my limits. Still finding that out.
Thanks for picking me up, and keeping me going.
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
What I don't know is my limits. Still finding that out
You are finding out how incredibly strong you are. The depth of love you have for your family. It's so inspiring,
Thinking of you tonight, dear TVS, rH
Me54/H47 '08 H is "done" March '12 H moved out Brink of D, December '12 2014 totally reconciled! ...... "I firmly believe in the...absolute possibility of marriage renewal." Jim Conway
Your postings inspire me and help me to keep my eye on the prize. I am coming up on that 2 yr mark when H moved out and the A was revealed.
I'm beginning to see the different stages I've hit as I've moved along this journey. This is a strange one. We have been living different lives for nearly two years!!!, he is probably with the old OW or maybe a new one, he's back to anger...I'm healthier, happy that I'm not living with his insanity right now...It's just weird to be linked to someone but not.
On the one hand, I feel overcome that he's been gone for so long and I'm beginning to get awkward pressure and questions from friends and family--most in disbelief that I've hung on this long.
That brings me to the other hand. I'm still here and I've worked hard to get to this point. Sometimes it's been at a snail's pace, but I'm getting there.
I have no brilliant thoughts, just wanted to let you know, I understand how hard this is, was, continues to be and I admire your courage.
Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
I haven't been around here too much, pop in now and then.
I was so touched rH, Gal, and Heather to see your posts and know that you are here for me. It brought tears to my eyes. Thanks so much for the continued support.
To be honest, I've had a tough time of things lately. I've had to ask myself some difficult questions and really examine some things.
It's been quite a process, one that is ongoing.
My dear friend uRw has said that the 18-24 month post bomb phase is tough. Many LBS's - if still around - give up at this point.
I'm feeling my way around to discover the difference between giving up and completely letting go, and what that looks like for me.
Yep, the tide still is high. Never know when a big tidal wave could come along though
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
[quote=Takevowsserious]T, there are so many people on here who care about you, pray for you and support you.
This journey is so difficult in a lot of ways. If causes you to really examine relationships, and what you're made of, and who you are inside besides dealing with a MLC.
It tests your strength. It tries your patience. It hurts your heart.
But I know you, my friend. And I know you are working through all this and trying to figure out what it all looks like for you in your wonderful TVS way.
