Thank you, Gabbysmom. I agree that I need to focus on me and the little guys. It's hard, though. My mind is my worst enemy. I can't let this go.
I keep thinking of how messed up H's priorities are and it makes me SO angry. I know this is not healthy for me because sometimes I catch myself having those angry thoughts while driving and I speed without even noticing. I also catch myself mumbling to my own self. I'm nearly crazy right now.
It's been an uneventful morning thus far. H is finishing painting the corners and edges of the room, so he has been there all morning while I went grocery shopping.
When S1 woke up this morning, H went to get him and made sure to not make too much noise as not to wake me up (I was awake, though) so that was kind of him, but when we sat on the couch, he sat far away.
I guess that's a trait of WAS? One moment they want to be close and the next they withdraw?
