A Fresh, New Day

[Pudmuddle]

So I went for a long jog/walk with my dog. Said g'morning to everyone I saw, then stopped and talked to a woman about her greyhound dog. Beautiful animal.

I am feeling better now, and it stopped me from doing something I regret.

When my H told me he was going out to 'watch a football game' I merely replied "ok, have fun!".

Then when he and S16 were leaving to go riding, he was getting the dog ready on his collar and I said 'I was going to take him out for a walk now'. Cuz normally he takes him with him when they ride. he said 'oh how long are you going to be gone?' I said 'I dunno'. cuz I really didn't. Anyhoo, when he was getting the collar on the dog, I leaned in and gave him a big kiss on the cheek. I know I'm not supposed to do that right now, but if felt right and he actually leaned into it and then patted my back when I did it. small positive or maybe wishful thinking.

So I took the dog outside and he was following me saying "well we are just going out to the aurora track and I'm not gonna ride, my hip is still hurting". Seemed like he was waiting for me to feel sorry for him. I just said 'Oh is it still hurting?' He said 'Yeah, it's better but I just don't want to do any more to it'.

Then I left.

Now I am going to get purdied up and go out, somewhere. Don't really have lunch plans but just need to get out and have fun. Maybe bookstore browsing, looking around in shops or something. I need to look for a comforter cover. Just be out and out long enough to not see him leave today.