One thing you want to remember, May, the choice is yours.
It's not anyone else's to live with.
YOU have to go deep within and choose if you can live with your husband for the rest of your life. There are no rules -
For me, I am out of my relationship for good. Sure, I would love a nuclear intact family and a sibling for my daughter. But after 5 years, I can see that I was going to continue to live inauthentically for many more years - indefinitely even.
But ultimately, the standards are yours. You create them. You live with them.
Your ego mind will have you running in a million different directions and keep you in fear and survival mode, if you let it. But if you find a place inside you that knows - I can forgive and move on and live with this man and I only have me to trust - then you can always go to that place inside you to rest when you are feeling uncertain.
And perhaps after you deliver, you can return to EMDR and work through some of that old trauma.
(I still have it over the dumbest things - and plan to do more EMDR for it)
