The scariest thing I think right now is not knowing whether or not this is it for me, this is the man I am to live my life out with, and things will get better. Or, this is a waist of time and there is a better road for me that will yield a good life with all that it brings.
dawn - you said a mouth ful here. i flip and flop- perhaps we just don't get to know -
back to that "certainty" thing. i like what linda said about ignore-
it's hard to ignore someone that's not there- i always wonder how the heck h will "see my changes" when he doesn't see me.
ya gotta wonder huh?
am endeavoring today- after reading last two posts by you and linda - to jumpon board with you guys - and not let h's world affect mind.
one more day - huh ? i'm so sick this minute- think i'll go find some coffee & call caregiver & give her a "pep talk" or something-
hope you two have a good day. it's funny dawn- putting faces and bodies on every one made me feel soooo incredibly sad to see these nice, actual people suffering, confused, unhappy - feeling like i do- it was overwhelming.
Oh God, hope i'm not getting wierd from too much time alone.
better blow dodge - not enough sleep- it makes me creepy.
