A Fresh, New Day

[Pudmuddle]

AWw thanks Angela, that made my day to hear you were getting motivated by lil ol' me. I'm reeeeeeeeally trying!

There have been few moments where I just want to shout out loud to him and use all the words I have in my vocabulary but I have pulled back.

I cooked a dinner in the crockpot today, something which I didn't do often, so is a 180. I know how to cook, just stopped doing it. I think the family was glad to have a nice warm dinner. I got a hand pat and I love you from my son after he ate which was very sweet. My H didn't say anything so I said Hey did the chicken turn out ok? then he said Yeah it turned out good, it was good. It's something.

Then while we were watching tv, I was looking at him without him knowing and I said Do you know...(really loud but not mean), he still didn't look me in the eye, but kind of gave me a sideways glance. Then I finished saying You look handsome today all scruffy. He kind of smirked a little. I said yeah, scruffy beard, torn jeans, looks cool. But then shortly after that I noticed he was talking more to me about what was on tv. Small positive.

It felt good for me to give him a compliment since I cannot give him a hug right now.

So I watched tv a bit more then decided I needed to detach and went upstairs to my room to read. I want him to miss me!! Darnit.