I'm screwing this up really badly. I just don't know if I can put up with all this.
S1 has been really fussy because of his teething. He is crying non stop all night and all day. It's giving me a headache and making me frustrated.
H and I tried finishing watching the movie this morning, but S1 just cried, no matter what medication I give him.
We went to lowes to pick up colors for the master bedroom and S1 just cried. At the check out counter, the lady asked me when I was due because I sure look like I'm about to pop and when she saw how fussy S1 is, she said, "you've got a lot of work ahead of you. Good think you have daddy here!" And I said, "yeah, hopefully he will be around"and both people at the check out counter stared at H, and she said,joking, "yeah, hopefully he is not going anywhere"
At home H was in a bad mood and picked up his damn iPad to go talk with OW.
I said, "you're going to go talk with your girlfriend while your pregnant wife deals with your screaming kid?"
He didn't look at me.
"This is what both therapists said: you want ice cream because you can't deal with real life. It's like a cigarette. You want something without kids and mortgage because its easier. Are you proud of yourself right now?"
"No, I'm not," he said angry.
"Then man up and stop!"
He then said he just doesn't want to be with anyone and want to be alone. I said, "that's a very easy way out of real life"
He said something along the lines of,"I'm here everyday, all day" and I said, "but you checked out emotionally and are planning on leaving"
He stormed out with his damn iPad and I screamed COWARD
