You are not feeling anything that a lot of us are feeling or have felt in our journeys. I would bet dollars to donuts on that, although given the price of donuts lately that is not the great bet it used to be...
I know, speaking only for me, that I have heard everything from my W that you are hearing from your H. It is nothing but textbook WAS script.
You can go back and read over my previous threads and see I walked the same path. The disbelief... the pain... the anger. While I accept my role of the breakdown of my M, my W still insists on laying all the issues at the feet of others. It was a lot of work for me to exorcise the inner demons that haunted me.
I know that I am a lot better today than I was a year ago. People have seen the changes. People around me have commented about it. I am evolving into a man that only a fool would leave. I like me. I haven't been able to say that for a very long time.
YOU can get there, girl! You have the ability. You have a wealth of knowledge and experience at your disposal on this site. You have the power to change... to evolve... to blossom.
I kicked the LBS side in me to the curb. He was becoming a distraction.
“Things turn out best for the people who make the best out of the way things turn out” ― Art Linkletter