all of you guys out there that read above and want to say - HEY NERO- QUIT THINKING AOBUT THIS GUY AND pondering the m.o. of "finding another great life - rite now" - and GET (the f) ON WITH IT.
HE DIDN'T ENTER MY BRAIN ALL DAY - I SWEAR IT- IT WAS JUST WHEN I SAT DOWN - was pooped and still for a moment - cam3e here - - HAD MY "FIX" MOANED AND then went to visit mom-zilla- sister whose even normal- walk w/ buddy- fall into bed and watch my stupid british shows & become comatose.
comparatively speaking a crap-sorta life, but hey- alive&sane & healthy- so glad to be here (alive) still- figure it will all come around to being "the rite thing happening at the rite time" in life- in general.
i swear- i'm getting on with it all- i'm tryin like mad anyway. pretty darn certain i'm doin my personal "best" with the life i'm given at the moment. not a big believer in flashy stuff & and anyone really having lives that are ALLLLLL SPARKLIE AND WONDERFUL ALLLLL THE TIME. (OR AT least, maybe i've HAD my portion of wonderful life and now i just get ho-hum life WITH a bit of good and a bit of bad sprinkled throughout - like everyone else alive) glad for NOTHING BAD going on at the moment.
GRATEFUL AS HELL FOR CALM AS A MATTER OF FACT. ABsence of drama and actual big giant dramas going on - is good with me.-
and i'm not 4even going to indulge in an over counter sleeping pill tonite- yeah, strict control ole me here. Heaven forbid i'd be come indulgent
heading out to flea-garage sale-around with a buddy momentarily.
i know- even woke up a few times in bed - know h is with ow- and didn't even really "picture" it all- or do anything other than tell self shut up and go back to sleep- watch the stupid show- crash , snooooooore.
