It is very hard Preggo. And probably for you extra hard because you have major hormones flying around too. I'm sorry this is hard day for you. {{{hugs}}}
I still find my mind spinning and spinning at times and it feels just awful. I don't talk about OW because it just doesn't feel good and when he defends her it feels even more awful. So I choose not to talk about it at all. I still have moments where I am tempted to snoop, question or look at a fb post, but when I remember how absolutely lousy it makes me feel afterwards I really do not want to do it. Why would I want to make myself feel any lousier? this is already tough enough!
The more you can focus on how you see things in the future as a positive, the easier it gets to remain in the now. What I mean is envision what your M would look like if it was happy and what you would be doing when it is in a good state. Keep that picture in your mind to keep you going. I think Ghandi said "Be the change you wish to see" (to paraphrase here).
Stay strong Preggo, you are a very strong woman. I admire that.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.