More than half of any problem that requires action is actually recognizing where it IS a problem. Good for you.
Just remember that you miss the person who treated you well - not the person who's here right now. It's totally understandable. Heck, I miss the old XH he used to be, and he probably says the same about me. The one thing that remains constant is change. You just have to go on faith that he's noticing your changes and reevaluating his choices based on what he sees. So just keep going.
I also recognize my own traps - in my case, I need to get out and exercise more. I bought a Fit Bit this week and it arrived yesterday. So instead of sitting on the couch and snacking, I'm going to ride the exercise bike that I also bought and get busy. It's just good for us to develop new habits that work for us and leave old bad habits behind. And what a sense of accomplishment!
LOL love the commando and combat boots! Great visual! You could also wear a thong and flip your H off. But that will probably set you back some.
Good luck this weekend! Hope you have a list of stuff you can do that will take your mind off doing the things that will take you away from your long term goals.
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."