starting over II

[Mimi00]

Kelela, did something negative happen? Why the talk to letting go of hope.
You have come a long way as far as you R w/ H...to the point he's actually considering coming home. What I am wondering is what internal changes have you been working on for you. I know in the past you've talked of GALing by going to the movies, changing your hair.... but what are you doing for the inside? You should be proud of your self for having the self-control to keep your cool w/ this sitch w/ your H.....also (something I am working on as well) be so busy improving your self that you don't have time to think of your R. If you are working on yourself, to be better for you, it won't feel like you are working on your M....put your hope into being a better you, then you won't need to worry about losing hope for your M b/c thats not where it is.

Are there any internal changes you've been working on?
Do you have a hobby?
Do you have time w/ friends outside of MIL and the kids?
Maybe start reading books that are focused on subjects you've always wanted to learn about?

Sorry if I am off base w/ my post...I just want happiness for you and since your first thread there just seems to be a heaviness, as I said before you've made it this far, don't give up now!