Becoming Comfortably Numb...Hopefully!

[RosaLinda]

Hi Portia! Just catching up, and am so glad to hear you sounding so happy and strong, despite random texts. I'm happy you are still on your SO's mind! And still have hope that he will return to you some day, but too bad, his loss, sounds like you are strong and moving on!

This touched a chord with me: "The texts are so strange because they are so normal, if that makes sense? Like he didn't do such heinous things and like we parted on good terms. Like it hasn't been almost a year since we saw each other or spent time together."

The exact same thought went thru my mind this morning about my H. He just spent a month in another country with another woman, actually sharing her flat with her, yet this morning is acting perfectly normal. Friendly, chatty. Except for the fact that I did not get the old pre BD#2 morning kiss and hug, he is acting perfectly normal. None of that recent MLC tenseness, walking away, ignoring me, nasty comments. As if he has not just been boinking the Tramp for a month, more like he was away for a couple of days with a friend or relative. I don't get it!

I admit it, I illegally had expectations that his trip would change something between us, either for better or worse. How could he still be acting exactly like my normal H? Maybe things have changed for the better? I dunno!