[quote=nero] i'm here because my life still feels too much a shambles to walk out and "go it alone". fear? convenience? revenge? who the heck can call it. "waffle" central - me.
Nero, You are so hard on yourself, my friend. You get to where you need to be when you get there. If you are not ready to do something different and it is not hurting your soul, it's ok.
I so get feeling like you have a lot on your plate. And you are trying to sort out substancial relationships in your life. Maybe you might want to think about sorting out one at a time. Just a thought.
As far as your h, I know it seems like he is going on with his life, but, trust me, you wouldnt want to be up in that head. As far as this being who he really is, you know the truth of that. You dont spend years and years with someone and not know that they are crazy. And no, they dont look and sound crazy sometimes. But they are.....People dont all do this stuff if they arent. They just dont.
If you are having trouble figuring out what you want, dont worry - you will in time. In the meantime, I am just 30 minutes away, if you ever want to meet for a bite to eat or a movie. I am easy and flexible. Just sayin......
If what you need to get through is keeping busy, then that's what you need. When you want more, you will get more. When the pain of not moving forward outweighs the need to not deal, you will seek more.
Nero, you just do the best you can. That's all you really can do.
