Eric I could use all the help I can get. I was a WAW and realized that I want my H back. At first he was sending me all kinds of mixed messages, but at this point he is involved with someone else now and says he doesn't ever see us getting back together again. He then tells me he isn't in any hurry to file the divorce papers because he cannot afford it and then lists off several reasons why he isn't ready, most of them selfish. I did tell him that if he waned to get a divorce the "cost" could be remedied and should not be a factor if he is indeed ready to divorce. He at first wanted to have wife Wednesdays but when he told me about the OW I pulled back and decided that I would only see him on Sunday's (we do a show) and no pursue him. At this point we are living separately and I have very little contact with him. He doesn't respond to texts, email, phn etc. This is killing me and I am trying to practice patience and DB but I feel incredibly lost and alone as everyone (friends and family) are upset that I would #1 ask for a divorce and #2 ask to reconcile. I am trying to work on me and become stable again. I just don't know when to throw in the towel or how long I should stay dark. When I was at his house he still has our wedding pictures, cake topper and our goblets out on display even though he doesn't have to, but then right beside his robe is the OW robe. I am lost and still trying to believe.
