hey hi-

glad to hear from you. sorry as can be that the outcome was not something wonderful- on the other hand, glad to hear it's not something "terrible".

stinking sitch, stinkin mlc - stinkin everything sometimes (like last couple years)

glad you're out there and still hanging in there. it's sooo tough - been thinking of you alot and wondering. you sound okay- philosophical. it's all we have, isn't it? rein self in- keep "normal", keep putting one foot in front of the other.

me too- am sick as he!! of this all - nothing has changed here either (h "out of town") die jacka$$ - i hate it- i hate it - i hate it.

can't do a damn thing about it- but vent and shout on paper (here) - pathetic, not even yelling out loud in the yard or something. if i lived next to an airport i'd go out and scream when planes went overhead- that is quite wonderful for letting off steam.

oh well-

i do not know today how or why i am in this sitch/life still. well, do not mean dying - don't want to do that. just cannot imagine really that anything will EVER change- .....

i'm stopping there- o got nothin- sos. $ucks so much doesn't it???

good luck withyour eyes - scary stuff. hope it all goes well.

xxoo