Went to work Sunday 29th. That night she hired a babysitter and went out with her "girlfriends". I now believe she is pursuing a probable EA with OM. I overheard a phone conversation she had which leads me to believe that this is the case.
Our property taxes are due and she asked me to transfer the money to her account so she could pay it. I told her that I would pay it when I get home. I want to make sure that the money is going where it is intended, the tax bill.
She is not too happy about that and has been pestering me for the last two days to give her the money. I keep telling her that I will pay it when I get home.
In the meantime, since she is not happy about this, she seems to be actively keeping me from talking with the children and ignoring my phone calls. She said she wouldn't pass on any messages to the kids from me until she gets the money (I'm paraphrasing). Nasty business divorce is. And I don't think we have arrived at the worst of it yet.
Her negative bias towards me is relentless. As bad as it is, it does help me to stay detached from her. I keep asking myself why do I still love her and hope that she finds her way out of the tunnel/fog. I know that is a question only I can answer for myself.
I will pose the question to all of you. What keeps you hanging on to the hope of reconciling with your S?
May we all find the strength and patience to get through this.
