Well Mile High it's good to know I'm not the only one to do such dumb things...lol... Today is a day I need to vent and journal about. As I write this out I feel like such an idiot about the fuss I made as to whether or not wish my WAW happy birthday 3 weeks ago. In doing what I believed (and still do)was the correct thing to do, I did indeed send her a short one line but nice email. And she even responded with a short how wonderful a day she had.
Now, exactly 5 and a half months later to the very day since she left it is my Bday. I know all about "no expectations" and have been trying very hard to have none. Unfortunately, I was hoping to see at least an acknowledgement from her. What I said yesterday is true about being use to her lack of contact after all this time. What I also said about GALing and having a much better attitude is also true.
It would just seem I really need to accept she is not a nice person anymore. Not the person I once knew and cared so much for. As I also said yesterday I can see things much clearer now. Please take note how I say "see things much clearer" but the fact is I do not not completely understand things. Nor am I killing myself trying to understand why any more.
As a typical LBS I am going through all the many stages. As a typical LBS I will, as most get through this and come out a much better person for it. It would be nice to be able to gauge where I am mentally given my sitch's time frame. I believe in many ways I am entering into a better state of mind as every day passes.
This site is incredibly helpful and the insight from the vets is just so valuable. As someone once said, "this to shall pass"
