5 and a half months into my sitch....where has the time gone...nothing has changed with WAS and I. Although I am now use to her lack of contact I am still surprised by her not speaking with me after all this time. My head/mind is definately alot clearer but limboland is not a nice place.
With that said, all in all mentally things are much better. There are still some tough days, you just cant avoid those.
That's good 2old, keep up the good work Did you read the rejoice ministry email the other day about working on yourself? It was a quite profound read and one I could relate to
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
It does get better over time with the no contact. Trust me on this. Keep yourself busy with GAL and other activities. Really the best way to get your mind off your W.
Thanks Wonka, yes, I understand time really is a great healer....TTD, I read charlynes writings everyday...Very encouraging words.....Been doing alot of GALing of late....Tonite it was the onslow county fair with the grandson....had a blast...and I splurged for a change with a delicious italian sausage, pepper and onion hoagie...cant beat good fair food...
That sounds yum I do love my food One of the students commented that the thing I'm most looking forward to, when we move into our new college, is the canteen, lol.
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
Well Mile High it's good to know I'm not the only one to do such dumb things...lol... Today is a day I need to vent and journal about. As I write this out I feel like such an idiot about the fuss I made as to whether or not wish my WAW happy birthday 3 weeks ago. In doing what I believed (and still do)was the correct thing to do, I did indeed send her a short one line but nice email. And she even responded with a short how wonderful a day she had.
Now, exactly 5 and a half months later to the very day since she left it is my Bday. I know all about "no expectations" and have been trying very hard to have none. Unfortunately, I was hoping to see at least an acknowledgement from her. What I said yesterday is true about being use to her lack of contact after all this time. What I also said about GALing and having a much better attitude is also true.
It would just seem I really need to accept she is not a nice person anymore. Not the person I once knew and cared so much for. As I also said yesterday I can see things much clearer now. Please take note how I say "see things much clearer" but the fact is I do not not completely understand things. Nor am I killing myself trying to understand why any more.
As a typical LBS I am going through all the many stages. As a typical LBS I will, as most get through this and come out a much better person for it. It would be nice to be able to gauge where I am mentally given my sitch's time frame. I believe in many ways I am entering into a better state of mind as every day passes.
This site is incredibly helpful and the insight from the vets is just so valuable. As someone once said, "this to shall pass"
Hang in there 2old and if it's any consolation "Happy Birthday!"
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
It would just seem I really need to accept she is not a nice person anymore.
There's absolutely no relation between "not being nice" to having zero contact. That's the WAS script to build up a Berlin Wall between you guys. They're angry, confused, lost, and in pain which is why they do not want any reminders of us. Boy they sure work hard at putting distance between us...but with time they'll slowly crumble brick by brick.
We need to bide our time. And get busy livin' and raising the roof!!!
Did you read the rejoice ministry email the other day about working on yourself? It was a quite profound read and one I could relate to 
