Living My Life

[littleGTO]

I'm going to start backwards from most recent post.

AS- I am 47 and I have been looking at guys with profiles from 32-48 so far. I FEEL so much younger than 37 (whatever that should feel like, I don't know-LOL!). I actually have been thinking about what I would look for in a guy (and 32 would be too young, IMO.."cute guy's age!" ).

Interestingly I realize A LOT of the qualities are things I used to love about my H.

Secondly, regarding my "break-down"...think it is part of the cycling back to old feelings that rear their ugly head from time to time. Luckily I tend to bounce back much quicker than I used to.

Fly- THANK YOU for your thoughts about my need to decide what I am ready to do based on what H is/isn't doing! You are right. But, I do need to know that H is on his same path so I can move further onto mine....if H has thoughts about saving our M then I can stand longer "to see what happens." BUt, if NONE of these thoughts have crossed his mind then I need to accept this and decide for myself where this takes me on MY journey.

If there is hope I want to know. If there is not I want to know this too. I do not want to make decisions based on lack of information just b/c I was too afraid to ask. Want to have no regrets.

bug- You are probably right- that I am not done, but almost, I think. And, yes, if I am still asking for advice about this then I still have doubts about being done.

willbewell- a ring is a ring...but when worn it does symbolize you are a M woman. My M is dead, so no ring. My H never wore his ring BUT he took it when he moved out and told me later that he thought he should have it with him.