Your W didn't leave you because of the sexting, she left because you weren't in the marriage. You had a drinking problem and had blackouts. The sexting was most likely the last straw.

Calling her about he pastor's message was way beyond pressure.

I'm sure she does pray for you and wishes you the best but she has to protect herself.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss