Incognito because you said you changed your screen name. I thought maybe that's why you didn't want to link to the original posts.
I like to read the initial posts because it's like exposition in a story. Lays everything out. Not having it is like starting a 10 chapter book at chapter 5.
But, it's your story and I respect your choice.
You've made an important discovery, only by forgiving yourself can you forgive others.
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Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss