Thanks again so much for having us, your home was welcoming and you are a rare gem.
You asked me if I really mean it when I express my anger. Do I really feel it to the end, life threatening and all. It's been a question that's been haunting me for a few days now and I can honestly say, no.
I have looked inside myself and saw that my anger is pure pain turned inside out. When I am so angry that I lash out verbally, I am in so much pain, I can't stand it and I want it gone.
This weekend has been very soul searching for me and I have had to look inside. It was also good to be on the outside looking back and really seeing my life. I have a good life to come home to.
I do have to learn how to sit and really hear the words, and not react to the actions that I create in my mind. The words that come out of his mouth are very telling. STFU huh!
I know you were maybe not ready for a rush of harsh truths, but I thank you for letting us all meet and get out of it what we each needed.
oooxxx dm
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
