I wish her family would just lighten up around me. My SIL was very uncomfortable when I tried to have a conversation with her. She didn't even look me in my eyes. Well I got no one to blame but myself for not having a relationship with them. I don't have much to say to them in all my 10 year relationship with W.
She's good friends with OM. They hang out often as a group of 4 along with her BF and W.

It's been many months now. I think I have finally forgive myself. I think I have longer sleeping hours. I still have problems letting go. I respect W's wishes in getting a D and pretty much gave her all the space and time she wants.
I know the focus now is entirely on myself. I bought something for myself recently and its been a very long time since the last one. I'm beginning to adjust to my new life away from 'home' and I feel quite comfortable with it.

M35 XW34
D5 D4
M 6years T 10years
Bomb 5/2013
Joint Petition signed 6/2013
Moved out end of 8/2013
Court Hearing of Joint Petition 9/2013
D finalized in 3 months - no news yet